Good Enough

It has been a long time since I have blogged.  I have really been wanting to get into this more regularly but have just been busy.  I have wanted to journal and this seems like a great way to do it.   A little public, but a good place to share my life and thoughts.  Lately I have been reflecting on how hard it can be to be a woman.  To be married, raise children, keep in shape, help out at school, in the community, maintain a home, maintain friendships, etc.  The list goes on and on.  What we women try to accomplish in today's world is amazing and borderline insanity.  I keep thinking it shouldn't be so hard.  What am I doing wrong that it is so hard?  Well, I have no great answers.  Just many collective thoughts and theories.  I think we set the bar too high.  I think we are too hard on ourselves.  I think we don't ask for help often enough.  Help can come from spouses, family, friends, children, etc.  I really think people want to help you just have to ask and be open.  It doesn't hurt to offer help in return either.   I think the media totally sucks and makes us all feel inferior and just not good enough.  I am tired of feeling that way.  I am good enough.  Maybe even better than that.  We spend so much time criticizing what we aren't instead of recognizing what we are.  I am a good mother (most of the time).  I don't have the cleanest house, but my kids play here, are safe here, and are happy here.  I cook pretty well most nights of the week.  I try to help friends when I can.  I love volunteering with my church and get so much back in return.  I am trying to teach my children to be charitable and look outside of their own little world.  I am proud of that.  I am 37 and I can still teach a kick-ass cycling and kickboxing class if I do say so myself.  I am constantly striving to be better and to improve myself.  I hope to be doing that all the days of my life.  We are never to old to learn, change, improve, or make a difference.  I try to pray every day.  Some days/weeks are better than others.  My faith is very important to me and I am trying not to take it for granted.  I have many things I could do better, bad habits, bad days, etc.  I am trying to keep going and move forward.  Enjoy something out of every day.  I don't want to look back and say I missed those moments that were right in front of me.  Live, laugh, love every day.  Forgive yourself. Forgive others.  Apologize when needed. You don't have to do everything all the time.  Say no so that you are not too tired or burnt out to say yes the next time.  Take time for yourself.  Love yourself.  Then it is easier for others to as well.  I have a long way to go on this journey.  This is where I am right now.  And that is good enough!